Words

its a bright tubelit room i realise i am in. there are voices around me, about me and perhaps addressed to me. i am sitting cross legged on a chair, as i usually do. the chair is blue in colour, dark blue. the monitor is to my left, the keyboard beneath my left arm. i open my eyes to see, but they are already open and although everything is visible, there is nothing i can see.

slowly, in a split second slowness, the voices take form, shrill, sharp sounds once pleasant. the faces appear next, humanoids, arms, legs, sitting, standing, things resembling me.

gradually the cacophony ends. it was the information that one more of my works has gone waste. again. the voices and the faces and the arms and the legs leave the bright tubelit room, one by one.

i swiwel to face the monitor. there is a blank page with a cursor blinking on off on off on.

i jump and take another leap.

yes, today i go for the gusto. ahem, its an official announcement guys.

i’ve divided delhidreams into two.

now the more mundane, daily thoughts and niggles of my mind will appear on this blog, here. delhidreams will be relegated to the outburts of the poetic kind 🙂

and then, there is this other blog, here, on which i’ll be posting the stuff i read and think worthy to be shared with you. i’d a wordpress blog (here) devoted to the same stuff but sadly not many of you were interested in it. thought that bringing it to blogger might be easy for you guys. it is certainly easy for me 🙂 and i’ll be posting those old posts on this blog also, ‘cos they contain some of my most favourite poetry and prose.

all this while you’ve somehow managed to be a part of delhidreams. i know it has taken some effort and iron will on your part. be assured that you’ll be tested even more on these two blogs. with my relentless approach, we’ll continue to interact as before.

oh yes, there is one more experiment that i would love to translate into a shared experience someday. so you might have to cope with one more blog from me, soon 🙂

anyways, thanks for being there always.

– adee

wake up at an unearthly hour, get ready early, run for the metro, but no, u can’t even run ‘cos u r already late…so take a riksha, get down at the metro station, run for the metro but it speeds away in front of u, wait impatiently for the next one, struggle against the crowd on your way out, run for the bus that will take you to office on time, get on board a private bus, then leave it as they are habitual time wasters, go take a government bus instead, hoping that it’ll take u on time, but u don’t know that the driver & the conductor have been bribed by the private bus people and eventually it is they who will reach before even if it was ur bus which went ahead initially; u think of an alternative, u get down mid way, try to find an honest autowallah who’ll take u to ofc on time and in manageable fare; wrong, there are no honest men in this city, everyone is a swindler, that poor malnourished rickshaw wallah will fleece u if u r ignorant or new; the bus driver will take a meagre 50rs bribe so that he can delay you; the autowallahs will skin you alive if possible, even a little rain doubles their fare…and then u reach office, just a minute late, and ur boss will cut a day of ur salary if u go through 5 mornings like these. but won’t give u an iota of overtime or facility, if u r even 3.5 hours late in the evening. u go home tired, u reach home dead and then tomorrow, its a brand new day. just try to get up even earlier then usual.

and then pray.

15th, 16th and 17th were holidays. first being the Independence Day, the second being Rakhi and Saturday and the third was a Sunday. spent this whole weekend in the company of books and a few dear friends. finished three books, started the new one i mentioned on my ‘dhai aakhar’ blog.

Monday was terrible. just could not gather myself to work, spent the whole day loafing around. Tuesday onwards, work has started moving. Friday, we’ve a big presentation, so i better get cracking now 🙂

feels strange that i’m writing this down for nobody.
am amused.

“Back in Beijing, a little after the Tricolour went up and the national anthem was played for the first time since the Indian hockey team won its last gold medal at Russia in 1980, Bindra preferred to remain modest and said: “I sincerely hope my medal changes the face India’s Olympic sports. I worked hard, left home and trained in Germany. It proves that if you keep working hard you have your day some day and it was fortunately my day today. For me life will go on as usual but I sincerely hope Olympic sports get a leg up. It’s not a priority back home and I hope more focus is paid to these events.” says The Pioneer here after the first ever individual gold medal by an Indian at the Olympics.

“Beaten, broken, and ambushed by a man who likes to flick the ball with his middle finger.” says Dileep Premchandran in cricinfo here after India’s series loss to the Lankans.

I think we should stop pointing fingers at the western neighbor for all the blasts happening in the country. Its time we realized that home grown jehadis are carrying the job forward. Do check this report on the Outlook site, here.

“On July 5, 6 and 7 we held a meeting in a village near Ujjain. Ten people attended the meeting in a small hut, where it was decided unanimously to create a new terrorist group after much discussion held over three days. All ten members were young men who were born and grew up in India and had strongly felt that the Indian state and its democratic organs had failed to address their concerns. We discussed the fall of the Babri Masjid, the non-implementation of the Srikrishna report (on the 1993 Bombay riots) and the growing injustice against Muslims across the world.”