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and a time comes

when everything has been said, done and thought of. when you pack your bags and step out for a new journey, to a different place, with a different caravan. when you look back at things and…

…and say to yourself, “don’t look back, stay focussed on the things to come. its time to shape up to a new future.”

wish us luck.
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sometimes i feel

in this book of life

we,

are but annotations

scribbled on the margins

by a student

that is time
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sawaal

aankhein band karo apni, abhi
aur mehsoos karo
ke ghul rahe hain ve sahare
jin ke bharose baithe ho tum
ya mit raha hai woh farsh
jahan khade ho tum is waqt
hawa ho rahe hain, manjilon oonche
ve saare bhram
jo alag karte hain
tumhein mujhse

aa jao ab tum
thos satah par meri
chuo
jaano
bhar lo aagosh mein
mere har ehsaas ko
suno
ke dhadak rahi hain ragein meri
ke har hissa
suna raha hai kahaniyan hazar
choti ho ya badi
achi ya buri
sunti, sehti
dekhti, kehti
rachti rahi hoon main
ye kahaniyan sadiyon se
jab se janm liya hai
jindagi ke maksad ne

jaano
ke zinda hoon main
aur pooch rahi hoon tumse
kaun si kahani kal
chodoge tum mere liye
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they call me love

I am the savior
The messiah
They long for millennia
And crucify
The moment
Life compels a choice
The unpleasant edifice
I am the sacrifice
Unrequited I leave
Uninvited I arrive
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A Reading List

I’m sorry for not replying to any of the comments or not being on the blog for two-three days. The net is not working at my place and one or two minor problems are making me feel left out of this part of my life.

Meanwhile, I’ve been reading a lot different stuff these days. Completed, ‘The Namesake’, ‘Atlas Shrugged’, ‘Alice In Wonderland’ & ‘The Bridge Across Forever’ recently. There are quite a few things on my reading list, My Name is Red; Red & Black; The Horse Whisperer; Schindler’s List; The Last Mughal and more. Plus there’s poetry by Neruda & Cummings I want to live – all credit to maddie, and my usual dose of Urdu & Hindi poetry. Haven’t even gone through some of the books I got from the book fair last year, most notably Yugandhar. There’s a good journal on net, The ThreePenny review I recently stumbled upon. Added to all this are my blogroll links, which I visit and print the best of the lot, reading them at leisure.
Dee has finished ‘100 years of solitude’ just last week and she’s hell bent on me reading it first. But then there’s ‘The Fountainhead’ also. From next Monday, I’ll be starting either of these two.
So, these days I’m not following anything structured like a novel. There are some editions of ‘Samkaleen Bhartiya Sahitya’ – the bi-monthly magazine published by the Sahitya Academy, to be read. With its each issue housing the best in Indian Literature across a variety of Indian languages, I’ve my hands full.

All this means, you’ll get a lot to read on our other blog on wordpress, provided we get time to post it all. I’ve already posted some wonderful poetry there. With Dee also joining in, we welcome you to share the best that we come across in our reading journeys.

P.S. The evening I thought to wait for Mr. Marquez, Mr. Conrad called me to read ‘The Heart of Darkness’. And it is excellent. About one-fourth I ventured with the narrator last night, and am glad I did. Will keep you updated once the net comes to life again.

Keep dreaming.

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the ritual morning

they arrive one by one, sometimes in pairs also. and a few weeks ago, one of them brought her newborn along. as if for an introduction, an initiation to the ways of her world.
it’s almost a daily process now. every morning, they amble up to the black iron grill front door we keep locked for fear of intruders. standing there, with silent eyes calling for my mother. meek yet assertive, they know the call will be answered.
we’ve named them on their colours. if one is ‘bhuri’ – the brown one, the other is ‘chitkabri’ – for her spots. one black, two white ones with huge horns and a few irregular visitors – this procession starts early morning and continues till the time i leave for office. maybe even after that.
almost all of them get something to munch on. a banana, a chapati, some jaggery, discarded vegetable skins or water when its hot outside, anything works. a couple of them are quite stubborn, they don’t budge even after having their rightful share, just keep standing there blocking the way. that’s when Ma has to shoo them away, which she doesn’t like much.

its rare that they have to go without anything to eat. somedays there’s just nothing that we can provide, so we’ve to request them to go away. “aaj kuch nahi hai khane ko” (there’s nothing for you to eat, today), says Ma. and reluctantly, very slowly, they move away to the next stoppage in their quest.
in this ritual of an ordinary middle class morning, these are the cows that visit us everyday.
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melancholy

yahan sab hain sab se juda juda
koi dost hai na rakeeb hai

main gila karoon to bhi kis se kya
ye toh apna apna naseeb hai

yahan dilon ke darmyan faasle
ye shehar kitna adeeb hai

dikha usmein kuch mera sa hai
woh shaqs kitna kareeb hai

perhaps there won’t be a translation for this.
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keemat

suno dhyan se
ke khada hona apne pairon pe
seedhe, tan ke
bina jhuke, bina taqleef
nemat hai bohat badi
aur ye jo jadein hain tumhari
samajhna keemat inki
beshkeemat hain ye
.
.
.
main samjha ye baat
jara der se

an attempt at translation, as always, in the comments section 🙂

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snow

maine barf dekhi hai to sirf
rupehle parde par girte huye
ya kitaabon, akhbaron ke
bejan pannon par
barf ko kabhi chua nahi maine
kabhi pighli nahi woh mere hathon mein
haan itna padha hai jaroor
ke barf ke koi bhi do kan
ek se nahi hote
abr se girte hain
aur sama jate hain
zameen ki gard mein
maine barf ko dekha hai sirf
par kabhi jana nahi
kuch lamhon ke khel ki
is sard zindagi mein
kahin main aur tum
barf ke ye tukde to nahi
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brilliance

sunday afternoon, waking up from a dream, wherein she had arrived & stood beside, resplendent in appearance – i noticed my dejection at the dream for not being real.

with the left knee and the shoulder-neck area still smothered in pain relieving gel, i hobbled up to the wash basin, to well, wash away any remnants of sleep i might have had.

and there it was.

sunlight. soft, sparkling, serene. spreading from the iron grille of the first floor air shaft, bouncing back from, illuminating the various household paraphernalia occupying that space, with every speck of dust visible in its beams, making these ordinarily daily objects looking almost divine. then gushing, streaming towards me looking up in awe, i must have been startled with the sudden beauty of it all. more so, because of the dream it followed.

and i wondered, why is light so beautiful? what’s on the other side of light?
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